Sorry Because I’m Sorry


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I mean I’m sorry…

I kept babbling without thinking
I only said what I wanted to say
I was so busy about myself
Thinking how hurt I was…

I’m sorry I didn’t notice
That something was off…

I’m sorry I didn’t look at you
I’m sorry I didn’t ask you
I’m sorry I didn’t get the chance to listen…

I’m sorry I was to full of myself
I didn’t notice you were hurting…

I could’ve seen it
I could’ve asked you
I could’ve listened
Then I could’ve comforted you…

I’m sorry that all I can is “I’m sorry…”


I’m not Saying I Don’t Love You


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We found love
Like the flowers blooming in Spring
We were so in love back then
We were so happy
We didn’t need anything
Except each other

Why am I saying this?
I’m not saying
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t mean it like that
What I’m trying to say is

I miss the butterflies
I miss the extreme joy
I miss the extreme sadness
I miss the craziness

I miss the times we had
I miss us before

Something changed in us
The feeling is still there
Yet I feel neither
More of love or
Less of love

Most of the time its ok
I don’t mind

But sometimes I feel frustrated
I wanna do something, anything
I don’t care what
I just wanna do something
Its so frustrating it drives me crazy

I miss you even when we’re together
I miss us even when together

I’m not saying
I don’t love you anymore
I don’t mean it like that
I love you
I can’t stop missing you
I love us
I can’t stop missing us
Don’t think too much
It must be one of ‘those days’ for me

I Feel so Full


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I feel so full
I feel like I feel too much
I feel like my chest is gonna burst
If I listen to a song right now
I’d be sensitive to every sound and word of it
Feeling all emotional as if it were written for me

I feel so full
I wanna laugh my jaws out
As if the happiest thing happened to me

I feel so full
I wanna cry my eyes out
As if the saddest thing happened to me

I feel so full
I wanna shout out loud
As if the craziest thing happened to me

I feel like going crazy
I feel so full
I feel so full
I might not make it
I just might go crazy
If keep all this feelings to myself
I’m gonna burst
I wanna let go

Just Let Go And Fall For Me


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It’s pointless to resist
You’ve already been caught
Just let go and fall for me
There’s no other way
It’s too late to go back and pretend
I already know how you feel
And I think I like it
Don’t you want to know
How I feel?
You might like it also

It’s not such a bad thing
To be brave
And it’s definitely not such a bad thing
To want to be with me
So stop resisting
Be brave
Be with me

You can lean on me


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Why is it raining so hard now?
I don’t like it when it rains
Makes me feel cold
And sometimes

You were so nice back then
What made you change?
Was it worth it?
Are you happy?

‘coz if not…
It was all for nothing

I hate seeing you like this

You can tell me if it’s too hard
You can lean on me

If it’s too embarrassing for you
Then I’ll close my eyes
Cover my ears
And won’t say anything

I’ll just be here for you
So hold on to me

I’ll Leave Because it’s too Hurtful


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I knew I was headed for a heart break
But I still went through with it
I couldn’t help it
You were already someone
I couldn’t ignore
You were always on my mind
And my eyes only saw you

I knew I was headed for a heart break
So how can I tell you?
I was almost certain that you’d leave
Once you find out my secret
So how can I tell you?

I Started this whole thing
Without any expectation
I made myself believe
There was nothing to expect
Again and again
Until I finally accepted it in my heart

I really was certain that you’d leave
Once you find out the truth
And now that you know
The only thing that’s left to do
Is to disappear
It would be too sad and hurtful
To watch you leave
So, I’ll go instead
You wouldn’t look anyway
So it won’t matter much to you

My Reality


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My reality is I’m an ordinary person
Who thinks uniquely of myself
I want to believe that I’m a special person
Let me correct myself:
I choose to believe that I’m a special person
Someone capable of doing great things
And eventually achieving something great

I’m a person who wants to make a name out of myself
Secretly wanting recognition

I want to do a lot of things
I want to be good in a lot of things
Some may call it ambitious
Some may call it greed
I’d be lying if I say I don’t care
But even still, that’s what I want

I’ll be Back


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I’m not looking for a place to hide
I’m not going to hide
So you don’t have to worry

There’s so many things going on
At the same time

It’s starting to confuse me
And drain me of my strength

I need to be alone for a bit
Not because I want to leave you
But because I need to think

I need to clear things in my head
I need to release the heaviness in my heart

I’m not looking for a place to run
I’m not going to run away
So you don’t have to worry

I’ll be back
It won’t take long
I’ll be back
That’s for sure

Before the Realization


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I came all the way
Just to see you
Don’t ask me why
‘coz I don’t know why
No really, I don’t know
So don’t ask

You’re ok and not ok
Don’t ask me what it means
‘coz I don’t know
No really, I don’t know
It’s all confusing
So don’t ask

Could it be that…
But rather you’re…
Then.. That would mean…



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The heart break’s over
The tears have stopped
I’m still sad but
It doesn’t hurt like it used to

I can breathe now

It’s really hard
In times of pain
You lose interest in everything
Like nothing matters anymore

Even so, I keep thinking
I should hold on and not give up
Soon it will be over
And soon it will be okay
Because life is a cycle of ups and downs
Like seasons pass and come again